Saturday, April 20, 2013

Out Of Our Control.... "The Big Picture"

"Out of our control"... What is the "Big Picture?"  This is an issue that has literally slapped me in the face over the past few weeks.  Our family has been struggling with some personal health issues....  attacking not one but a few of us and it forces me to realize that as much as I try....  I cannot control every aspect of life.  My children who are so precious to me are truly in the hands of God, (and there are no better hands than His) but.. as much as I wish that I could "fix" everything for them.....  that is not the way life works.  I can't always fix the health issues or the heart aches and trials that we all seem to go through at some point in our life.  I haven't even been able to fix my own struggles as of lately...  and I am putting it out there friends...  I have truly been struggling myself recently.  I am certain that life has climbed on me and as much as I would like to think that this has happened overnight...  I realize that I have been struggling for months maybe even years....  Could it be that two of my children have been diagnosed with Type 1??   Absolutely..  Could it be that I worry, at times, about my oldest getting it?? Certainly....  Or could it just be that I have been struggling with my own personal issues which have lead to one very anxious woman who realizes.....  that everything is feeling out of control....  I am learning with each day that I really need to turn "Everything" over to God...  Which if you know me you have to know that this is something that "Mrs. Fix It" truly struggles with.  We are all human and as much as I wish I could share that I have it all together all of the time, those of you who know me can attest to the fact that I do not... I feel that I need to share this for others that are going through struggles and fears that are simply "Out of our control." You know the saying/song...  "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger.."  Well...  I am not so certain that those words are absolutely true but  I do feel that the struggles and trials in life happen for a reason..  I wish that I had the answers for so many "Why?" questions but I do believe there is a "Big Picture," that isn't always revealed to us in our timing ... <3  xoxo